5 minutes with a neuron doctor seems to be worth 375 Euro in Austria.  It costs 25 euro to just walk through the door, 28 Euro for the receptionist to make you a bill, then the rest for the service of the doctor.  Being told its to early to see  anything, then getting asked to lie down he will still give it a try.  5 minutes later he says "just like I thought still to early to see anything".  He sends me away to book another appointment in 2 weeks.  The receptionist hands my bill to me and I laughed so loud and told them there was no way to pay a bill like this.  375 euro is about $700.

Atleast at the hairdressers you offered a coffee.

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I was out walking today, thinking of my hand that still doesnt move from the "im gay position" and how i need to ask for help to tie my shoe laces and do other normal jobs.  i thought I had it pretty tough.  When I walked past a lady sittting outside on her porch knitting.  Knitting faster than i could with 2 normal hands.  The only thing which made me stare and walk away appreciating my situation more, was the fact that she had 1 hand and a stump with no fingers. 

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Maybe its my fitness training that makes me think pain is good, but atleast you know something is happening.  When you feel nothing it can set doubts in your mind as to wheather you will ever be able to use your hand again.  Mental pain is so hard to deal with, give my physical pain anytime!!!

I think im on the road to setting a record of healing really fast.  You would hardly know i had broken my arm or fractured my back 1 week ago.  Im trying really hard to not lose much strength in my body.  Im doing one legged squats, and loads of other balance exercises without weights to try and keep some strength in my legs and core, also my secret  to recovery is VISUALIZATION.

I go to Engadine (st moritz, swtizerland) today to watch my contest im suppose to be doing.  Im going to use it as a learning tool by watching riders and their line selection.  Im using visualization as a technique to train my body(i know to most of you this doesnt sound right) but it works.  Studies show that using our mind and thinking about training can strengthen our muscles.  one study showed that the group lifting weights over a 3 week period developed 28% strength gain and the group that visualized and didnt lift weight developed a 23% gain............................................the mind is powerfull.

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4 days spent in the krankenhous is not good for anyones rehabilitation.  White bread with butter and jam,  which a pig would even turn his snout up at, whilst the other patients got dark bread, cheese, tomato and meat.  Are they thinking that Australians have no gourmet desires and are happy with plastic to eat?? I couldnt beleive that and im glad the young nurse did find it funny and understood when i  asked him politely if he was trying to kill me.

4 days dressed in all boys clothes(including underwear) would not be terribly fun for most women.  But when I asked Alli why did he bring me his clothes and not mine it made sense, "yours are too tight, and mine are easier to  get on" and it definatly made life so much easier. 

When your feeling so bad you dont care about all those small things in life.  I had 2 days with blood through my hair, dressed like a boy, with no girlie products.  I love the way men think when you ask them to pack you a hospital bag, you never know which delights you are going to get, or maybe not.  I got boys clothes, toothbrush, and face moisturiser.  Out of the hundreds of things he could have choosen.   What more do you really need though?

Im home now and things are going well.  Im in physio and working hard at trying to be back in 8 weeeks for the last of the FWQ competitions.  Its not my broken arm, or fractured back which will be stopping me.  I have a right hand that flops into the, i'm "gay position" and has no feeling in it.  Things will move quickly for me at home. I have the best carer looking after me, and living in  the most amazing relaxing place.  Life is still great

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